is cool blue sky
becoming
my mind
and body
and the birds
who are chirping
so sweetly
are within me
and now
the golden sun
slowly begins
to shine
and I feel
so good
I grow into
the universe
and glow
with love.
is cool blue sky
becoming
my mind
and body
and the birds
who are chirping
so sweetly
are within me
and now
the golden sun
slowly begins
to shine
and I feel
so good
I grow into
the universe
and glow
with love.
wiping off memory
with its bright light
washing away thoughts
like the waves
of the sea
and this life
is so precious
shining like
the moon
in my hands
then maybe
it is this forgetfulness
I must cherish
my face I see
in the silver glow
I must give up in joy
only then will I
understand that
the beauty of living
is in dying.
to the forest
and the forest
speaks to me
the wind dances
in happiness
and the birds chirp
in such joy
the blue sky smiles
and I am awash
with memories
flashes of happy days
gone by
go dancing
in my mind
and I say O life
you are so kind
you have helped me
find my heart
and I laugh
in such ecstasy
the universe echoes
in transcending waves
of wild delight
that take me out
of this cosmos
and bring me back
born again.
with the voices
of demons
and my own voice
is hoarse
shouting
the world
has gone mad
the world
has gone mad
and there
is such pain
inside my head
like serpents
stinging my
brain
that in shock
I die.
down a staircase
and I wonder why
my thoughts
are tumbling
with such intensity
why this cyclone
inside my head
blowing my words
around so loud
they leave
my tongue
like bombs
and my brain
is burning
and I burst
like a balloon
full of blood.
and my throat bled
with the force
of my talk
and my ears
couldn’t stand
my own voice
shut up shut up
I was telling myself
but phrases
poured out
like vomit
out of me
they just
wouldn’t stop
and then
my tongue
fell off
on the ground
I saw it moving
and there
was darkness
and I died.
in this little girl
in her talk
my heart
is warmed
day in
and day out
her sweet voice
calling amaa amaa
and everyone here
is delighted
with her
one neighbour
cooing vaave vaave
sunnari
and at this baby’s prattle
her family
laughs aloud
and I know
she is enchanted
with life
her conversations
full of wonder
at the world
and she is
so happy
everyday
she sings
Happy Birthday.
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‘amaa amaa’ is Tamil for ‘mother mother’
‘vaave vaave sunnari’ is Malayalam for ‘baby baby beautiful’
instead
of your brain
in your head
and it poisons you
making you scream
and shout
your thoughts
bursting like balloons
and soon your body
is broken
and your blood
venomous
slowly killing you
and babbling
and frothing
at the mouth
you die.
you need to dig deep
into the earth
and find the right cave
and inside it
you will hear
such beautiful music
melodies so sweet
you will turn into air
and you will blow
over gardens
of peacocks
and deer
and roses
into the faces
of lovers
and it will be
your breath
with which
they kiss.
and I take
to the sky
like a white dove
and I can feel
the peace
the solace
of air
and my breathing
is so calm
I contemplate
the universe
and slowly
I become
one with it
and deep inside
I know
this is love.