I don’t know
I have drifted
so far away
I have no idea
of my way back
and I am wandering
all over
these strange roads
like some ghost
and the world’s
indifference
hurts me
I am angry at life
for having
been so wicked
to me
broken my body
and now my mind
begins to break down too
and I can feel the heat
I am soon burning
like the pages
of a book
I am consumed
by flames
and then
my ashes blow
in the wind.
opening up
on and on
in various shapes
and it is
so nice
to feel this way
I think
I am floating
in these places
light as air
I am blowing
so free
and these planes
and figures
keep growing
and growing
and I am drifting
in such peace
there is such solace
in my heart
I fly and fly.
and mind
transparent
like air
so cosy
my body feels
with you
and my life now
calm as a still sea
spread out
so beautifully
like a flower
its fragrance
enchanting
magical like
the universe
I live in
where I am
floating free.
the birds are chirping
the sun is golden
and the silence
is so peaceful
it touches your heart
and calms you down
and you are flying
like a bird
you are free
and to the green valleys
below
you sing
and glide through the air
you are without a care
you feel lighter
than a feather
and life is beautiful
you croon
all day
and at night
you sleep on the moon.
is so disturbed
at war with itself
within my head
swords clash
words lash
and there is
such a din
I can’t bear it
my brain is burning
and my body
is exhausted
what do I do
and this horror
just goes on and on
day after day
and its getting worse
I am now its prisoner
there is no escape
breaking down
in the end
I want to
go away
from this world
forever.
everyone was throwing stones
at everyone
and it all began
with someone’s anger
at someone else
but you cannot control
everything
sometimes even yourself
and so we just lost it
and the violence spread
it engulfed cities and nations
and continents
and finally the entire Earth itself
and we were dying
like flies
falling to the ground
bleeding and badly wounded
breathing our last
and soon we humans
were a thing of the past.
like a demented insect
buzzing
my mind chatters
about real and inane things
my head begins to burn
and I feel my worn out body
like dead weight
and the world now
is a ball of blood
in which I am trying
to swim
I thrash about
with my arms
and legs
as the liquid
floods me
in waves
and I drink
the blood
of my fellow humans
and animals
as I drown.
some shops closed
some open
and the people
were chilled out too
my body and mind relaxed
as I walked Kumily’s
KK Road
and it is so nice
to live here
so quiet
I thought
as I went past
the policeman
at the junction
it was so picturesque
so beautiful
the white Post Office
and as I walked
to the rickshaw stand
a rickshaw comes by
and the driver knows me
and takes me
straight home
and I am so happy.
through the wind
it is saying hello
how are you
and I say hi
I’m good
and the birds here
chirp so sweetly
and the breeze says
Kumily is so nice
slow life
that’s right
I reply
this is one place
you can fly
and the air
says yes
here you can
go really high
life ambles by and by
you become
light as a kite
exactly I say
it’s so much fun
my oh my.
dance in my heart
like lovers
and I hold solace
in my hands
like the moon
and when
I look into it
I transcend
the world
and I glow
in everyone
and everything
in the tiger
running in the forest
in every object
in the universe
I am lit with happiness
and you can feel
my pulse in the cosmos
and it’s saying
I love you.
Dominic Alapat 